Oh, Today. Oh how I love you.

Today has been my day. It started off with a nightmare about my failure that deprived me of much-needed sleep. I woke up to rain clouds and a headache.

It went on to be somewhat average: I had to endure the annoying classes and had to finish a benchmark (or midterm- tomay-to, tomah-to) that I probably got a C on. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Then, ninth period rolls around and it's time for me to perform a comedic monologue that we were required to make up ourselves. I'm not naturally a very funny person and I'm extremely shy, so performing my own comedic material in front of a class full of kids I still barely even know was the most nerve-wracking experience I could imagine. On top of that, the character I created required a lot of passion and personality.

But guess what happened next? I got through it in one piece and even managed to get a few laughs. My grade made me more than happy. My confidence went from flat to through the roof in less than five minutes. The beauty of the day does not end there, however. Yes, it gets better...

I come home to an acceptance letter from the first college of my choice. After the dreadful aforementioned nightmare about me getting rejected from said school, this could not come at a better time.

I'm flying high right now. That was all I needed. :)

Thank you, life. You're pretty darn fantastic sometimes. I'm sorry for all of those times I've cursed at you and called you ugly names.

This is Joe Brooks. And I love him. End of story.

SPRING BREAK STARTS FRIDAYYY

I'm excited, although I know I won't get to enjoy it too much. School continues to keep me as a slave.

I perform my comedic monologue for Movement for Actors tomorrow. I'm a little nervous, but I feel confident. It's sort of like a Twilight parody- I know, I know, not very original, but hey, I'll work with it.

Have a great day <3

"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself."

 -Harvey Fierstein

Just a little blog update...

To let y'all know life's good right now, in this moment.

I really wish I could live in the moment more often and never have to think twice about tomorrow. Life would be so sweet if you could just go with the flow, wouldn't it? I think so.

Anyway, carry on. Hope life is treating you well!

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List of some well known Portuguese-American people.

We've got some pretty awesome people! :)

All I notice is the error in this and it BUGS me!

 Can't hardly wait. Gleeking out!

Let me tell you about my day...

It, for lack of a better word, SUCKED.

And this time change is dragging me down a little bit. Don't get me wrong, I love the extra sunlight, but I'm a night owl and the light prolongs my procrastination. Ugh.

Let me get to some great music. Maybe then I'll feel better.

Either way, I've already lost

I am writing this, even though you'll probably never see this. Perhaps it's better that way.

Anyway, I just thought you should know how much you mean to me. It's very hard to find a person you could just talk to about anything without fear of being judged; it's hard for me, at least. For someone that chooses her friends carefully, I appreciate every conversation we're able to share, every thought-provoking and LOL-filled conversation.

So if you consider me to be your friend as much as I consider you to be mine, why would you do this to me? Why would you put me in such an awkward situation? What do you really expect me to say? Maybe I'm being selfish. Or maybe we're both just being selfish. 

You have to understand that I'm going to need time. I can't seem to find the right words to say. Actually, I wish I could tell you this, but I'm not sure how you'd take it. Maybe you should've thought about how I'd take what you had to say. The last thing I want to do is make things weird or end our friendship all together. Every moment we don't speak, I feel guiltier and guiltier and you probably just think I'm purposely being a jackass. I won't blame you, my lack of confidence would lead me to believe the same thing.

I just want you to know: I'm not avoiding you. I don't want to lose touch or lose you as a friend. I don't want you to remember me ten years from now as the stuck up princess you wasted your time on. I just need time. And you have to respect that. 

Pleasepleasepleaseplease

I just want to get into Kean.

ONE nightmare and I'm stressing yet again. Why am I so afraid? I'm always telling my friends to remain confident, yet here I am. I need a friend like myself; someone to, as corny as it sounds, believe in me.

If I get accepted, that would be enough for me.

MTV needs to die

First of all.

• Laguna Beach
• The Hills
• 16 & Pregnant
• Jersey Shore

All of those shows are TERRIBLE. And that last one gives New Jersey SUCH a bad name. It's trash. Just hearing about it makes me feel like I've lost brain cells. No thanks.

And they're doing that Skins USA thing? Sorry, no. Skins is so great because of what it is. They're ruining a good thing.

So I say MTV seriously needs to go away!

Hey, Saturday!

It's so, so beautiful out. I just got back from a little Spring shopping and rescued some very old clothes from years ago that magically still fit!

So far, so good.

Even though I have the most excruciating allergies, I'm looking forward to this Spring. I'm really into this whole feminine edge look; a little artsy, a little folksy, a little elegant and romantic, but with an edgy twist. I'm glad I finally found my own personal style. And I am so glad I got out of my whole punky-emo-goth phase of my life. I can't stand to look at old pictures of me from a few years ago.

Anyway, have a beautiful weekend, loves. <3

Beyond angry

I am livid right now. I gave my guidance counselor my transcript request form for Kean University in JANUARY. Guess what? Kean never received them and I'm wait-listed until they do. How lovely is that? I think it's just PEACHY.

I swear, my school doesn't even have a guidance system. If you call THAT guidance, you're a moron.

JOE BROOKS IS COMING TO NEW JERSEY

The minute I read his tweet and Facebook status I went from "meh" to "HOLY FLIPPIN' TURTLES!" I'm so, so excited. I hope I can see him. I hope, I hope, I hope.

I've never wanted to see ANYONE in concert this badly before. No one cool ever comes to New Jersey and if ever they do, I don't get to see them. I really hope this dream can come true for me. Ahhhh! I am beyond excited. :)

xox.

Reminiscing

Today I saw one of my eighth grade Language Arts teachers again. It was a nice trip down memory lane, but now I must admit, I'm a little bummed. It just got me thinking to how much has changed. Middle school was so long ago and quite frankly, I miss it. Life was so much better, and simpler then. Maybe it's just me.