Anyway, I just thought you should know how much you mean to me. It's very hard to find a person you could just talk to about anything without fear of being judged; it's hard for me, at least. For someone that chooses her friends carefully, I appreciate every conversation we're able to share, every thought-provoking and LOL-filled conversation.
So if you consider me to be your friend as much as I consider you to be mine, why would you do this to me? Why would you put me in such an awkward situation? What do you really expect me to say? Maybe I'm being selfish. Or maybe we're both just being selfish.
You have to understand that I'm going to need time. I can't seem to find the right words to say. Actually, I wish I could tell you this, but I'm not sure how you'd take it. Maybe you should've thought about how I'd take what you had to say. The last thing I want to do is make things weird or end our friendship all together. Every moment we don't speak, I feel guiltier and guiltier and you probably just think I'm purposely being a jackass. I won't blame you, my lack of confidence would lead me to believe the same thing.
I just want you to know: I'm not avoiding you. I don't want to lose touch or lose you as a friend. I don't want you to remember me ten years from now as the stuck up princess you wasted your time on. I just need time. And you have to respect that.
No comments:
Post a Comment