Waiting for something to happen...

Saw 'My Sister's Keeper' today. I loved it. Never in my life have I cried so much during a movie and laughed at the same time. It's a beautiful film, I recommend it.

So far, this summer is alright. I mean, I wanted to get a job, but for some reason, I don't see that happening, so I guess I'll work on my community service hours for school instead. I guess I'll try to make life happen, too. Last summer was a waste and I have no intentions of letting this one flop too. I've got my heart set on a David Cook concert. Let's see if that's happening. Ugh, my life is so boring and uneventful. I really need to do something about it. Let's see if I can.

On a more personal note, I'm really frustrated. I'll have one day where I'm super-confident and then three weeks of hating myself. I don't mean to sound emotional or complain or anything. It's something I'm trying to change about myself. And you know, it's not even about my looks or anything. I get to thinking that there's nothing special about myself and that people are bored with me. It hurts. I think that's why I'm so shy and it's so hard for me to make friends. I guess I'm just waiting for someone- anyone- other than my own sister and family to take an interest in me. A genuine interest. I want that BFF-feeling. I want to be more social. I want to like parties and people and going out. I'd LOVE all of that.
When will it be my turn?

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Mouth: Take a look at yourself in a mirror who do you see looking back?
Haley: Is it the person you want to be?
Dan: Or is there someone else you were meant to be the person you were meant to be but fell short of?
Mia: Is someone telling you you can’t or won’t? Because you can.
Chase: Believe that love is out there.
Nathan: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: Sometimes happiness doesn’t come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
Julian: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Brooke: Believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.
Peyton: So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be. Believe that.
Lucas: And believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do.

I want...

I want to start some kind of revolution.
I want to change the world.
I want to create a name for myself.
I just want to be heard.

I need some inspiration.

You know what?
I'll just take anything.

What's a girl to do?

So much effin' work to do. A research paper, a magazine, and a freakin' career project, which includes another research paper. Fun, fun, fun. Also, finals are coming up. Ew.

To top it all off, I have no idea what I could do to earn my parents' trust. I'm responsible, I get good grades, I don't fool around with boys, and I make the right friends. What am I doing so wrong that I can't even walk to school (5 blocks away!) by myself. We live in the effin' suburbs, man! And I'm 17, not 6!

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